hey..
feeling kinda bored right now. yeah since i didnt post for quite some time now, i feel like posting something today(: yeah.. ok i'll start with my phone.
ok, recently, my dad confiscated my phone. haha, you know he always ask me to put my phone in the living room everytime i reached home but i didnt listen to him so one fine day, which was like saturday afternoon, he took my phone away. LOL
yeah i was pissed. i felt tht my dad was being bias.. cause my sister did the same thing. she took her phone into the room but my dad did not even scold her . WTF? yah i felt tht i was treated unfairly. but its alright now. Ouch, there is this bumb on my lips... ouch. hhhahaha kay, tht was totally random.
haha so next, the girl. the girl i always always loved. i should really wake up and stop thinking tht she would like me again. the way she treat me, is just like how any ordinary best frens would treat each other. there isnt another feeling. yes i admit, i was trying to find tht feeeling~ hmm, guess i've waited long enough..
you know why i dont want to stop liking her?
because everytime i see her, it makes me really really happy. everytime i go out with her, it reminds me of wht we did in the past. everytime i say i wanna forget her, but once i looked at her, everything just come rushing back. i cant forget her..
i always think she was the one for me, and told myself tht i'll wait for her no matter wht. but i realise nothing can go on, even if u wait a hundred years, if the girl doesn't want to acccept u. ppl now will say to me, "hey ur still young just focus on ur studies first!". But the problem is tht i studied with her almost everytime now, and everytime i study, i'll think of her. she motivates me to study more. almost every little single thing i do reminds me of her. i really dont wanna run, i wan her to accept. But its not like u want to acccept then accept lah, haha must hv the feeling first ~ .. LOL
yeah now i hv no idea wht to do. i dont wanna wait anymore, but i still wanna be with u!
ohhh shit.. this is worst than a dilemma LOL!
hmmm its ok, i guess i'll just think it through some other day or just LET TIME TAKE ITS PLACE! LOL
hmm its getting late, i gtg!
BYE (:
