Random

Hello.
Hmmm, I'm so bored right now.
All I can think about is her.
She seems pissed. Argh, I hope she's okay.
She didn't reply me, I guess she really is pissed.
I don't know if she still reads my blog, but if she still does, I want to tell her, "don't be angry anymore! I'm sorry, and so are the others! Sorry ... "
I just want to talk to her.
I just want her attention..
Is it really impossible between us? ><
I know, I should just give it up. If its normal ppl, they would hv given up.
But I don't want, because I know u are tht one person I wanna be with, the ONLY one..
Hais.. I just hope for a miracle.

Pls? ...
😔

bored #

hey..
feeling kinda bored right now. yeah since i didnt post for quite some time now, i feel like posting something today(: yeah.. ok i'll start with my phone.
ok, recently, my dad confiscated my phone. haha, you know he always ask me to put my phone in the living room everytime i reached home but i didnt listen to him so one fine day, which was like saturday afternoon, he took my phone away. LOL
yeah i was pissed. i felt tht my dad was being bias.. cause my sister did the same thing. she took her phone into the room but my dad did not even scold her . WTF? yah i felt tht i was treated unfairly. but its alright now. Ouch, there is this bumb on my lips... ouch. hhhahaha kay, tht was totally random.
haha so next, the girl. the girl i always always loved. i should really wake up and stop thinking tht she would like me again. the way she treat me, is just like how any ordinary best frens would treat each other. there isnt another feeling. yes i admit, i was trying to find tht feeeling~ hmm, guess i've waited long enough..
you know why i dont want to stop liking her?
because everytime i see her, it makes me really really happy. everytime i go out with her, it reminds me of wht we did in the past. everytime i say i wanna forget her, but once i looked at her, everything just come rushing back. i cant forget her..
i always think she was the one for me, and told myself tht i'll wait for her no matter wht. but i realise nothing can go on, even if u wait a hundred years, if the girl doesn't want to acccept u. ppl now will say to me, "hey ur still young just focus on ur studies first!". But the problem is tht i studied with her almost everytime now, and everytime i study, i'll think of her. she motivates me to study more. almost every little single thing i do reminds me of her. i really dont wanna run, i wan her to accept. But its not like u want to acccept then accept lah, haha must hv the feeling first ~ .. LOL
yeah now i hv no idea wht to do. i dont wanna wait anymore, but i still wanna be with u!
ohhh shit.. this is worst than a dilemma LOL!

hmmm its ok, i guess i'll just think it through some other day or just LET TIME TAKE ITS PLACE! LOL
hmm its getting late, i gtg!
BYE (:

The Past

Hi blog!
Okaies, today I'm gonna talk about MY PAST.
I used to like one girl in primary 6, I shall not mention her name. She was CUTE , very cute! And adorable as well! And pretty! Yah so I started off liking her secretly, until one day I could not take it anymore as there was this one guy in the class who kept 'flirting' with her. So I went to ask for her number from her friend.
I started off ," hi!"
She was like," you are?"
And I was like," I am gehuai"
Then she was like," oh okay"
Then it went on and went on and I continued talkin to her. Yeah until one day, I can't remember when, I asked her," are u attached?"
Then she was like,"no"
I was kinda happy, I guess. I could not remember what my actual feelings were but I knew I felt happy. Out of luck, I asked," since you and I are not attached, can we try to be together?"
If I wasn't wrong, she said "I don't know"
Haha then I think we went on talking and talking until one day, I don't know how, we were together.
Those were the times, those great memories I had(: that was really when u was sooooooooo happy (: I looked forward to school everyday, just to see her(:
I remembered the first time we went out. It was with our other best friend. I remembered we went to a fitness corner. Then, she was wearing skirt and she didn't dare to climb up on something, haha I cant rememberr.
Another time was I went out with her, on a movie. We wanted to watch astro boy, but there wast any seat left. So we watched 'Michael jackson : this is it' .
Before the movie, we went to ntuc to buy some snacks. Then we went to watch the movie. I remember how I help her hands throughout the whole entire movie, till my whole hand is sweaty(; but it was great. I never felt anything like this before. The feeling was just GREAT (; I remembered I finished my snack, but she bought a whole packet of ruffles! She did not open it. Then, she sent me home. I know, that was suppose to be a guy's job but I don't know why it was her who sent me home! On the way back to my house, we past by a dustbin and she asked me," gehuai u want this ruffles?"
I said I did not want it because my mum would scold me. So she just threw it into the bin!! Hahah that was really unexpected! Lol! Haha, she so cute sia! I forgot why she didn't want to bring it home. Lol! Yeah, then we went home.
Another time was after school. We met at the canal behind the secondary school. She gave me a present. A dog chain. Till now, I still have it, but I don't know when and how to wear it! Lol.. Yeah she was so nice. Haha then we headed off to her house. We ate at somewhere first before we went to her house. We walked up the stairs to her house, which was the 9th floor. We held hands while walking, so to me, I did not feel tired at all(: then we talked and took pictures(: if only I still had them... Hmmmm anyways, yeah, that wa the first time I had a solo pic with her(: she looked so adorable(: hmm then it was time for me to go home. We walked down the stairs again, haha and on the 2nd floor, we hugged(; that was the first time I hugged a girl. It was the first time I went So close to her. It was the first time I had that that feeling, the feeling of hugging someone u love. Haha yeah so with that, I went home. But it wasn't all happy, I got scolded by my mum. She asked why I reached home so late! I lied saying that my friend lose his wallet and I helped him find it. Haha I know, Im a bad ass. But it was worth it(: she was all I ever wanted. Subsequent time we went out, it was happy times too, those were memories I just can't forget (: yeps, anyway after about one year, she broke up with me. It was tough, really and I gotta admit, I sort of hated her for one week. But I still liked her. I did not know why she broke up with me. I guess it was because I had not much freedom yet. Yeah it was according to her. But I didn't blame her, it was true, I did not have much freedom. So it was back to lonely days again..
Hahaha but now, she's my best friend(: my bestie(:
And yeps, I still do like her, maybe more than what I've liked her before (:
But it's alright, I'll wait for her.
Because she is the one that I really wanna spend time with.
Okaiess, that's it for me for now!
Gotta go!
Bye!

(:

Yoz! new blog(: lols!
deleted my old one.. haha
yeah.. haha as you can see, my URL
haha its hearts you forever(:
yeah i'm gonna hearts her forever!
sooo...
haah yeah, not gonna post things i dont want ppl to see(:
haha today no time post, i'll post another day(:

Love her forever <3